Debbie Downer

I've been trying to stay positive since my last post. I desperately try to focus on the good, but I have failed. I have fallen, what seems like miles, on the road I was forced to go down. Maybe it's because the holidays are coming up, and I know it's going to be brutal. Maybe it's because this time last year is when things started going downhill for Dusty and me. Maybe because in my master plan, Piper would be a big sister by now. Whatever the reason, I'm having a rough time.

I will admit I am still having a blast with my friends and regaining lost friendships, discovering who I am, and let me not forget that the Sooners are #1 as of now! So, it's not all bad, but there are some nights and days that get lonely. And I wouldn't mind going on a date sometime. Sometimes I get so angry because my ex-husband gets everything handed to him. He is being rewarded for bad behavior, while I am left standing in the dust of his decisions. And I don't know if anything could cure this anger, short of finding a time machine, but I think we are still a few years away from time travel.

I will stop here, because I don't want to have a pity-party for myself. And I know life isn't fair. Speaking of fair...it's fair time in Brazoria County! Look at this precious face that I get to see. She's mine, and that's nothing to be sad about!